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Here I am

Here is my true self
Standing before you
Tender and shy
Will you accept it
Or do you reject it
Will something inside me have to shrivel and die
Do you need me to put on a show
False facades have failed me before
I need you to love me whole
I don't want safety and acceptance
That's based on illusion
Only my true self needs love
The kind of love that's from above
Deep intimacy is what I look for
And I can bear to be vulnerable
If that's what you're made of
Please join me, my dear
Come feel with me here.
I can master my fear,
I can take the leap
But will you be there
Or will I be left standing alone in a heap?
It's worth the pain if it means I can love, and be loved again
I'm done with being lonely
The emptiness is too much
I'm ready to accept that my worth is
No reason to be ashamed
No reason to hide
You can't have intimacy without attention
Can't get close when there's always distraction
Can't find comfort without consistency
Can't build connection without any time
Can't be in sync when you're falling behind
Can't find understanding without empathy
Can't sustain passion without play
The opposite of closeness is indifference
So starved for meaning
The mere promise of emotion sets you off
I won't hold back and I won't run in fear
But darling, are you here?
I love from the heart
I can love so big
Does that scare you away
Or finally help you breathe?
I'm not here for games
I'm showing up at my best
Can you handle the rest?

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