Escape

Last night, I was drinking only red

On the edge of a hotel bed

With a man who thinks he knows me

Tonight, I'll go across the street

Buy us some cigars

Cause I don't want to be lonely. 

Lately, I've been playing all these games

Is it sad or is it sick?

Because there's no escaping this

I know it's only a distraction.

But I close my eyes

And I see deep green, and ocean blue

My toes are sinking in quicksand

I better wake up before he can

Catch up to me 

He screams my name

And I wish I could be 

Free. 

This time, I said I wouldn't run

But the walls are closing in, 

And I'm stuck inside this story

Next time, I'll be smarter and I promise 

That I won't let it get this deep because 

I know there is no glory-

In the end.

Right now, I wish I could go back

Cause its harder when you know

What you want is what you lack.

And your heart remains a glow

Long after it's been broken.

Still I watch the fish 

Swim underneath, I close my eyes and 

I can hear the clicks 

Of vintage keys under my fingers

Spanish guitars strum in my ear

All the lies I want to hear

And we can linger.

Fantasy is misery

But this is where I choose to be

Why can't I set us free?

I just want us to be

Free

And happy.